Yesterday a young man rang my door bell asking me to buy magazine subscriptions to send him to school. He showed me a picture of his 2 year old daughter. His hands were very cold. He wore a perpetual smile and a retainer which slurred his speech. With the highway noise in front of my house I had a very difficult time hearing him. I wanted to invite him inside my house where it was quiet and warm. But I didn't - I hate that we're not supposed to do those kind of things these days - can't trust anybody, I've been told. I told him that right now i'm putting my husband through school and I wouldn't be interested in buying any magazines. I felt awful. I still do - can you tell? As my husband says, I'm such a sucker.
There is a man that I see sitting outside of the 7-11 a lot at night. Whenever I go to the RedBox, he is always sitting there on the concrete. Last night I saw him and instead of walking past him, I stopped and asked him if I could get him anything. He called me sweetie or dear or one of those endearments and told me "no thank you". Which surprised me, because it was cold and he looked very ragged and in need of something. I got Landon and I a little candy for our movie viewing (by the way, "2012" is a terrible movie), and left. As I was walking to my car, the old man told me to have a good night. I wished him one also and slid onto my heated seats, turned on the satellite radio and cruised on home.
I'm overwhelmed today with God's provision of material needs and comforts in our life. Landon has the opportunity and privilege of pursuing his education as far as it will take him. That is a big deal. We are able to stay warm, eat plentifully, and enjoy entertainment and recreation without having to work weekend jobs anymore, or having to sacrifice other things. Sometimes I get frustrated because we are not as well off as I wish we were. When we don't have the money for medical insurance enough to have kids, or whatever else the need or desire is at the time. But when it comes down to it, we are sitting fat and happy here in Utah. I am so grateful that no matter what our life circumstances, it is God that provides for our every need. and he always does.