Wow.

I'm so sorry for my lapse in posting. Though I did warn you, not even I could imagine the time that would pass.

(Kale and Saeran. Our 7mo. old nephew and niece)

Landon and I have been with family. When we are with family, I really don't like to blog. We got to see McBrayer's at the beach in Florida and Sheely's in Denver. Landon and I are so blessed by our families. Eight babies ages 3 and under make for an exciting and exhausting extended weekend at the beach. Not only have we been with family, and enjoying the beautiful nature at both the Gulf and the Rockies, but we are thrown into another period of unknown. Although this one is scarier than others, I think, anyway.

We don't have enough employment to support us. It's a scary place to be. Our lease is up in two weeks along with my contract of employment with Sponsorship, and I'm realizing that without income we can't get a place to live. I've applied to over 80 jobs these last 3 months. And i'm not being too picky. But I know that if I throw my application at Starbucks that even there, I wouldn't make enough money to pay our bills.

I try to be a woman of Proverbs 31: a woman who will "laugh at the days to come". Meaning, to trust God with my future, and not carry it upon my own shoulders, trusting him unwaveringly. And that is getting more and more difficult as my family's well-being is my responsibility and we are very soon to be homeless.... of course, this sounds silly. Someone is bound to rent us a house, right? Or we could live with my parents until I find a job.....if that could be soon....  But when it comes down to it... Quite simply, come July, we don't have a house or a job. And July is quickly approaching and I feel like a deer in its headlights.

This is becoming a constant thought. Like a popcorn kernel stuck in my throat, is our financial situation in my mind. Except that it is also such a heavy weight.

I haven't even kept up with your blogs very well. Which makes me sad, because I know that your lives have been changing a lot in  these last 3 weeks. But I will do better. And I will keep you posted.

I hope that you are continuing to grow in your love for God and for others and that you will take some time this summer to live a little wild!!!